I have every picture burned into my memory and more :
• The very first pictures you ever sent—white top, sunhat—when I told you the cringe “You’re beautiful on the inside and out” (it was the first time a girl ever sent me pictures of herself, and I was absolutely flabbergasted and floored of how beautiful you looked)
• The one of you in the white top, on the street in San Francisco (?), and the one clothing store mirror (?).
• The one with black eyeliner, a frowny face, and your nose piercing—the one where I sent you that meme of the guy saying, “I’m an empath.”
• the picture in the same vain with the black dress, on your knees with yor goth make up, looking as stunning as ever
• the picture of you in that same makeup and dress making a face and making me think how freaking cute you are.
• Your purple gym outfit, where I called you “the sexiest Tinky Winky ever” (the Teletubby reference).
• The pictures of us in the mirror at the Airbnb—you taking the picture, me looking at my phone, then the next one of us hugging because it took me back everytime to that moment and feeling.
• The two pictures of us at that bar in that hotel (the name escapes me, but when your friend said he hated that girl you both knew because she asked him if he was a friend of Dorothy ), where you see me hugging you in both before we went to Stables for the first time (or the 2nd time where I twerked on you seemed down)
• The Polaroid picture you sent of you when I was hesitant yet fully committed to going to new years with you in Dubai , with Ghassan (with blonde tips and orange hoodie ), and Yasmeen in the U.S. and some guy “twink in glasses” —where I said, “I -love- the girl on the left and want her to myself” I remembered it enough to buy you a Polaroid camera a month later.
• The Snapchat of us lying on the couch together and me sleeping in your arms
• The picture you sent when I told you I dreamt of you in a dress, and you sent me one of you in a black nylon (light reflecting?) dress and asked “is this the dress you dreamt of me with?”
• The video and picture from Winter Wonderland, where you were with your cousins, in hijab, looking as beautiful and dreamy as ever with your gorgeous eyes that hold me captive every time I look at them
• your pictures of your nephew Ali in his cute birthday get up